What should i do with my relationship?

im not trying to be an a$$ or anything but you mention god a lot and yet you are with a man who is married to someone else. maybe you should keep god out of it and make up your mind. it sounds like he is not willing to divorce his wife which means that probably he is looking to get back with her at some point in the future. if he is serious about you then he will divorce his wife and marry you. if not then you need to move on.